Story of Yashma Gill from Loosing Faith in Religion to Become True Muslim
Yashma Gill born in village near to Jahania city. jahania near khanewal multan side. yashma gill father was captain in navy
he married twice in life . yashma’s father made rule that he live one day at first wife’s home and stay on other day at second wife’s home.
When yashma was 8 year old her father left navy.
she always feared that if her parents will separate so with whom she will live , who will take her custody. To know her value she use to write notes and hide. in these notes she write ” mai ghar chor ker ja ri hu ”
she said her first love and fist hate relation ship was with her brother . she use to compete with him a lot. yashma said they were not financially strong , they comes from middle class family.
she always thing as that her father has two families so what will be our future. she also reveal that we belong to conservative family . she feared that if she got married and her husband will also get married second time. Soon her father started his own business and soon their financial condition gets better. They shifted from backward area to DHA Karachi.
After shifting to DHA she learn how to be resilient.
she always though that her family loves her brother more than her and so she decide that she will become like her brother. So she come out of her a shell. She over come her fears. She conquer her fears.
Then she follow her brother in school , her brother was quite active in school . She started using hotmail and then her brother use to hide PTCL phone wires and even CPU so Yashma cannot use such things .Her brother wants to protect her. As child yashma never realize that brother wants to protect her. she is not really expressive .she feel something else but she never shows.
During an interview with Samina Peerzada, the ‘Qurban’ actor opened up about how she renewed her faith in Islam after going through a rough patch with atheism.
“I used to over analyze everything, making sure not to offend anyone and being nice to everyone, but getting hurt myself regardless of that. It reached a point that I lost faith. I used to say to myself that ‘No, if there was someone up there then I wouldn’t be suffering so much’,” she said.
“When your iman (Faith) is weak, a veil falls shrouds your mind and, even if someone is answering your questions, you do not understand anything,” she added.
Treading ahead, she spoke about meeting a girl named Warda who turned her life around while Yashma was studying in Australia.
“She used to be a hijabi and when I saw her I thought that I am definitely not getting along with her because she is such a staunch Muslim, she will judge me. So I started ignoring her. But she was such a nice person, she never judged me. She understood me and my problems and started explaining things to me through my perspective,” she continued.
“She asked me to try one last thing to renew my faith, saying ‘Okay, just try this and, if your faith in God doesn’t return after this, then you can remain your atheist self’.”
Yashma Gill, the actor from ‘Alif’ opened up about how she renewed her faith in Islam after going through a rough patch.
“When Ramazan starts, you have to pray five times a day and fast regularly with all of your heart,’” she said, adding: “She asked me to pray and ask God to come closer to me and let me believe in him.”
She further explained how she took that up as a task and decided to give it her all, making sure she understood every verse she was reciting during the prayers.
She revealed further that she would jot down questions in her notes throughout the day and at the end, before going to sleep she would search for answers to those questions.
“After doing everything and giving it my all, when the month was over, I went to Warda and told her that I gave my one hundred percent, but I haven’t received any revelations or any guidance whatsoever,” she said.
Merely two days later, at prayer time, she felt a missing piece in her routine. “There was some weird restlessness, this feeling of anxiety that used to happen to me and it started to come back.”
Yashma said she realised that during that one month of Ramazan, she had found her first job since she started living in Australia and also sorted out some family problems that had existed for a while.
“My life had become very happy and positive. But I hadn’t realised it at that time. I just kept on wondering what is missing. And then I realised that maybe all this time, the peace, the dependency, the happiness that I was in search of in other places, was actually over here,” she said.
“I went to Warda crying, and I told her how I was feeling. And then she told me that I should ask her about all the misunderstandings that I had at the back of my mind, and she explained all of that to me, giving references of a few lectures as well,” she further added.
“You won’t believe me but I used to never understand such things but for the first time, that day no contradictions to the answers I used to get before, came to my mind and I got this internal satisfaction.”
Yashma said that, while she was in search of sources to counter her depression and mental illnesses, the answer lay simply in trusting God.